At the Luau last night, I came back from the dessert table with a couple bite-sized banana/chocolate pastries. Ann, who was sitting next to me looked at my plate, then me, then calmly said, “You dare come back here with that after the fucking blog you wrote today!”
Now that, was funny... It reminded of the comment by Joe, who said he could now remove going on vacation with me from his bucket list.
I didn’t write that post to judge or condemn anyone. (Or to cause them to lose sleep, as Brian had told me earlier in the day.) First of all, I’m no one to judge…
Remember the scene in that Twilight movie when Bella cuts her finger and the blood drives Edward’s brother into a frothing frenzy? That’s kind of how I react when I see the “Hot Doughnuts Now” sign flashing at Krispy Kreme.
I’ve had a sweet tooth my whole life. I moved out on my own at 15, and basically subsisted on pizza, sodas, and candy for more than ten years. As I got older it started to catch up to me, and I became aware of the connection between diet and health.
I still gulp the occasional Dr. Pepper and will treat myself to something sweet for desert like I did last night. But here’s the difference: Before breakfast yesterday, I did 60 minutes of cardio with a heartbeat over 110. After breakfast, I did three sets of 12 reps on nine different weight machines for a total of 27 sets. (Since I was on a retreat and the Grand Wailea has an amazing gym, I took advantage of it, doing a much longer workout.) Then after lunch, I played an hour of pool volleyball. (Helping Team USA defeat Italy for the world championship I might add!) With exercise like that, I can burn a tremendous amount of calories, consume four or five meals a day, have some treats, and still maintain my weight.
I didn’t write the post yesterday because I want to be the food police. The point was really about the questions posed, and you guys had some great comments in response. The whole idea of why we would want to “cheat” just seems not to be a healthy one, and leads to the worthiness questions in the post.
It’s really worth some reflection on how much of our self-sabotage behavior and other dysfunctional habits are rooted in those worthiness issues. The programming from advertising is certainly a factor, as is the peer pressure to conform with some clearly unhealthy behaviors. And the addiction element is also a factor.
So the questions still remain…
Do we choose destructive choices because we are manipulated beyond our self-control by mind viruses from advertisers and physical cravings? Are the bad choices and addictive actions merely symptoms of deeper worthiness issues? Are we self-medicating with food (or alcohol and other recreational drugs) to divert from personal demons we’re not facing?
These are the real questions, and they’re not so much about food (or drugs), as they are about prosperity consciousness. They speak to our self-image and core beliefs about what we think we’re worthy of. And if I have learned anything about prosperity it is these two things:
1) If you don’t have your health, you don’t have prosperity.
2) You don’t manifest the prosperity you deserve – you manifest the prosperity you think you deserve.